His face screws up in a bastardization of that crinkly face Mick loves so much, full of annoyance instead of awkward embarrassment like its twin. "Oh, shut up. That's such bullshit and you know it!"
Those last words are what really kind of send him over the edge, though. Mick genuinely thinks that is more important than him? Leonard feels his heart drop to his stomach as that realization sinks in. Jesus, when had he fucked up this bad and not realized it?
Pain of that realization gets turned into anger because that's easier to deal with and hand out. "I don't know what you expect, Mick, this isn't exactly new."
No. That's not what he meant. That came out differently than it had existed in his head.
But he continues with the same train of words all the same. "You've known what you're in for, for decades at this point. Like, an entire two of them. No, I'm-- I'm not the kid who was head-over-heels--"
Lie.
"--but this is the way it's been for ten, twelve, years by now. Why are you acting like this isn't completely normal days before a heist?!"
Except that the problem is, it's extended so much further than that these days. And Leonard just doesn't see it.
He's not quite wired the same way Mick is, and even though he had, for a time, craved those things in a similar way, it had never really been at the same level Mick craved it. And when the novelty wore off, and his own issues crawled up to fill the empty spaces, it all just sort of fell into the background of everything else.
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Those last words are what really kind of send him over the edge, though. Mick genuinely thinks that is more important than him? Leonard feels his heart drop to his stomach as that realization sinks in. Jesus, when had he fucked up this bad and not realized it?
Pain of that realization gets turned into anger because that's easier to deal with and hand out. "I don't know what you expect, Mick, this isn't exactly new."
No.
That's not what he meant.
That came out differently than it had existed in his head.
But he continues with the same train of words all the same. "You've known what you're in for, for decades at this point. Like, an entire two of them. No, I'm-- I'm not the kid who was head-over-heels--"
Lie.
"--but this is the way it's been for ten, twelve, years by now. Why are you acting like this isn't completely normal days before a heist?!"
Except that the problem is, it's extended so much further than that these days. And Leonard just doesn't see it.
He's not quite wired the same way Mick is, and even though he had, for a time, craved those things in a similar way, it had never really been at the same level Mick craved it. And when the novelty wore off, and his own issues crawled up to fill the empty spaces, it all just sort of fell into the background of everything else.