Confusion wars with hurt in his expression as he watches Leonard struggle to explain himself and it's only getting worse. He's not kicking him to the curb. He still wants him. But he's telling him he can.. What? Go out and get laid by someone else? To go and be someone else's problem for a night?
And it doesn't help that this used to be something he could give him. Even those years when all they did was hold hands in private.
There's a nasty voice in the back of his head, wondering what he could have done to push him away like this.
His voice is low and strangled because he's pretty sure Leonard doesn't understand why he wants this. Why he asks. "No. No. I'm not.. this isn't about just getting off." It's about touch. It's about wanting to reach out and touch the one person that means everything to him. "I can't do that. I can't."
Leonard is giving him permission to be disloyal and everything in Mick is screaming in refusal. He can't do that to him. He can't.
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Date: 2018-02-22 01:52 pm (UTC)But he's telling him he can.. What? Go out and get laid by someone else? To go and be someone else's problem for a night?
And it doesn't help that this used to be something he could give him. Even those years when all they did was hold hands in private.
There's a nasty voice in the back of his head, wondering what he could have done to push him away like this.
His voice is low and strangled because he's pretty sure Leonard doesn't understand why he wants this. Why he asks. "No. No. I'm not.. this isn't about just getting off." It's about touch. It's about wanting to reach out and touch the one person that means everything to him. "I can't do that. I can't."
Leonard is giving him permission to be disloyal and everything in Mick is screaming in refusal. He can't do that to him. He can't.