Maybe facing him for this conversation was a bad idea. He can't hide the falter in his features at Mick's words.
No. No no no. This isn't happening. He's blaming himself. He's blaming himself and it's Leonard's fault for not just answering him.
"No," the word rips out of him like it physically hurts him to say. "No, Mick, it's not--" There's a sound that's a little like a scoff and a laugh mixed together, devoid of any humor at all. The irony of the over-used line that's about to tumble out of his mouth is not lost on him at all. As he speaks, he shakes his head, to pushing the point or because his whole body is just becoming a part of the emphatic way he needs Mick to understand what he's saying is the truth.
"It's not you, okay? I promise, you-- you never did anything, or- or didn't do something that caused this. It's me." There's that humorless scoff again because he just can't believe the things rolling out of his mouth now. "It's something wrong with me, and I can't stop and I can't make it go away and nothing is gonna fix it, okay? But it's not you. It was never you, please, please believe that, Mick.
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Date: 2018-03-18 01:27 am (UTC)No. No no no. This isn't happening. He's blaming himself. He's blaming himself and it's Leonard's fault for not just answering him.
"No," the word rips out of him like it physically hurts him to say. "No, Mick, it's not--" There's a sound that's a little like a scoff and a laugh mixed together, devoid of any humor at all. The irony of the over-used line that's about to tumble out of his mouth is not lost on him at all. As he speaks, he shakes his head, to pushing the point or because his whole body is just becoming a part of the emphatic way he needs Mick to understand what he's saying is the truth.
"It's not you, okay? I promise, you-- you never did anything, or- or didn't do something that caused this. It's me." There's that humorless scoff again because he just can't believe the things rolling out of his mouth now. "It's something wrong with me, and I can't stop and I can't make it go away and nothing is gonna fix it, okay? But it's not you. It was never you, please, please believe that, Mick.