You set out to destroy any chance I have at happiness, simply because your emotions are supposed to trump all of mine and I already know that your delusions are strong enough that you'll never see any of this as anything other than my fault.
You'll get your will and I'll be back at square one, but I hope you don't believe that I'll still want to be with you after this.
Thank you for messing me up. I'm great at self-destruction, but in this case I needed some help.
And you always cast me as the bad guy like I never did anything for you, like I never helped you, like I never tried to find you happiness. All I had was you and after you kissed me that once, you didn't want to know! I don't know what I did wrong. I thought it was a good kiss.
All I'm doing is having lunch with a friend.
Am I not allowed friends? Does me having friends mean you have to self destruct?
I've never been innocent but you hurt me and you couldn't even fucking tell me why you didn't want me, what the big deal was or anything. One moment we had a thing, the next moment you had a boyfriend.
But fine, you want the truth? Have it.
If I wanted to hurt Cisco, I would have done it. I just wanted company today. I'm always alone, I'm bored being alone and you can't even be near me like I have some kind of leprosy. I originally wanted to wear him down so he fucks off and ditches you but ... he's not bad. For a geek. Whatever.
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Date: 2017-02-23 07:55 pm (UTC)What I talk about with him is none of your business. Just promise me that you won't hurt him.
Please.
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Date: 2017-02-23 07:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-23 08:04 pm (UTC)You'll get your will and I'll be back at square one, but I hope you don't believe that I'll still want to be with you after this.
Thank you for messing me up. I'm great at self-destruction, but in this case I needed some help.
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:13 pm (UTC)All I'm doing is having lunch with a friend.
Am I not allowed friends? Does me having friends mean you have to self destruct?
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:16 pm (UTC)Please don't hurt Cisco. Please never make me hurt you again.
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:21 pm (UTC)But fine, you want the truth? Have it.
If I wanted to hurt Cisco, I would have done it. I just wanted company today. I'm always alone, I'm bored being alone and you can't even be near me like I have some kind of leprosy. I originally wanted to wear him down so he fucks off and ditches you but ... he's not bad. For a geek. Whatever.
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:26 pm (UTC)[Hiding things from him, lying to him.
But why? Again, leading back to it being his fault.
Hartley just wants to get this over with. At least when he's alone and miserable, everything is under his control.]
You and me are not good together. Just look at this mess. Whatever.
Enjoy your sushi.
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:28 pm (UTC)I love you. I'd do anything for you. I even protected you.
I'm not my dad, I can be a better person if that's what you need. I can fucking try. Why won't you let me?
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:33 pm (UTC)But stop doing things to win me. I'm not worth it.
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:36 pm (UTC)You are. Whatever. You'll never understand.
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Date: 2017-02-23 08:37 pm (UTC)Don't eat too much wasabi at once.
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