{We march like fools in this parade of chaos

[myheadisaprison]

PSL with mostlyajerk & trickedya

Comments

[thisismadfreaky]

Oh my god, this doesn't have anything to do with him.

I'm not stupid, Hartley. I know what you're doing and it isn't gonna work, okay? So just...stop trying to make me hate you because I don't and you're not gonna make me.

You aren't making this easier by doing that, okay? Nothing will make it easier because I know it's not what you WANTED, it's what you've convinced yourself of, that I deserve better and somehow you don't fit into that equation but you're wrong, okay? you're wrong because I didn't WANT someone else, I didn't WANT better. I want you.

[mostlyajerk]

So you're willing to settle for worse? Good to know.

We should go back to small talk.

[thisismadfreaky]

You can stop putting words in my mouth, too.

No, you don't get to do that
You don't get to back out just because it's hard
You already did once, I'm not letting you do that again, just fucking talk to me, Hartley

[mostlyajerk]

What do you want me to say? I'm not going to start reading your script just because you're playing rough. We tried dating. We broke up.

[thisismadfreaky]

No, you broke up with me. And I don't for two seconds think you actually wanted it.

[mostlyajerk]

Was someone holding a gun to my head?

[thisismadfreaky]

No, and I never said somebody forced your hand, just that you didn't really want it.

You said yourself, you think you come with an expiration date, you were getting a jump on what you thought was inevitable because if you pushed me away first, at least it's on your terms, right?

[mostlyajerk]

You're right. I sound like a mess.

Why would you want to date that?

[thisismadfreaky]

Because I love you, you idiot.

Stop.
Just fucking stop.
Please.

Can you honestly say you feel better for it?
That you don't miss me at all?

[mostlyajerk]

No. Of course I miss you.

That's beside the point.

[thisismadfreaky]

No, that's EXACTLY the point

[mostlyajerk]

I'm in love with you and I'd rather be with you than anyone else in the world, that isn't something I expect to change any time soon.

[thisismadfreaky]

Then why the hell AREN'T YOU?
Hartley, I'm literally sitting here telling you I love you and I don't want anybody else. Isn't that enough?

[Read: Isn't he enough?]

[mostlyajerk]

[thisismadfreaky]

You're just not gonna talk now?

[mostlyajerk]

My rat has a teddy bear.

[thisismadfreaky]

Right. Okay, fine, you win, I'll leave you alo
This isn't ov
Am I not worth even actually talking t?

It's cute.
Where'd you find a teddy bear that small?

[mostlyajerk]

Toy store. I went into one the other day, first time ever.

Did you know how many toys they make? And kids just play with their phones.

[thisismadfreaky]

All that time dating me and you've never been in a toy store at all?

Yeah, it's crazy, right?
I would've LOVED some of this stuff when I was a kid.
....okay, I love some of it NOW, ngl

[mostlyajerk]

I didn't really have free time as a child and there seemed little reason to go into one once I was disowned, between having no money and being an adult.

I bought a LEGO set.

[thisismadfreaky]

Have I mentioned lately your parents are dicks?
Because every kid deserves at least one Toys-R-Us trip, okay?

Yessss, i love legos.
Beware fallen legos, tho. is2g it's almost as bad as stepping on a thumbtack or a nail.

[mostlyajerk]

I went into a smaller store. Already too much choice.

I'll be careful. I've rats picking up after me anyway.

I should have let you take me to a toy store, you're a pro.

[thisismadfreaky]

The smaller shops sometimes have better stuff anyway. Better quality.

Yeah, good point.
Lil buddies don't need to grab those up.

Nothing stopping that from still happening.
We're still friends, right?

[mostlyajerk]

I dumped you, I'd think that would keep you from wanting to be friends with me.

I'm just glad I don't have more money. They had a Hogwarts castle.

[thisismadfreaky]

If I can't have you, I'll take being friends with you.

I've been eyeing that set for awhile.
So many dollars, so many hours.