Chicago went off without a hitch. The perfect job. All that time I spent obsessing over every minute little detail absolutely paid off. In the best, and biggest way. A job like that just doesn't fall together perfectly from nothing, and it's such a high to know it worked exactly how it should.
Sitting on the bridge and staring at the city lights with Mick after was kind of different this time. Better. Amazing.
He kissed me. And it was actually my first. Ever. Which is awkward as hell, but it's true. I just didn't care until Mick. ....That's actually true in a lot of ways.
I wish I could tell you the things I think. Especially the ones about you. I think I should be able to tell you those things, but when I try, I just get stuck and the words don't come out right. Or they don't come out at all. But even though I don't say them, I think them. I feel them. A lot. Like...a lot a lot. You have no idea the way you've invaded my head, heart and veins, Mick Rory. You're like a disease I never want to be cured from. Or maybe you're the cure I never knew I needed.
I'll just use this to tell you some of the best parts, and maybe one day you'll find this, or maybe I'll find a way to tell you out loud.
Mick Rory, you are my favorite person on the planet. The only one that might win out over you is Lisa, and somehow, I'm pretty sure you'd be okay with losing to her. But only her.
My favorite place in the entire world is on your couch. I'm more comfortable with you than I've ever been with people. I've never felt more at ease, and at home, than when I'm next to you. I hope that sooner, rather than later, I can be there, all the time.
Maybe one day I'll tell you. Maybe you already know it, in that way you always seem to know everything that I need, even when I don't realize it.
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Date: 2018-11-17 03:22 am (UTC)Chicago went off without a hitch. The perfect job. All that time I spent obsessing over every minute little detail absolutely paid off. In the best, and biggest way. A job like that just doesn't fall together perfectly from nothing, and it's such a high to know it worked exactly how it should.
Sitting on the bridge and staring at the city lights with Mick after was kind of different this time. Better. Amazing.
He kissed me.
And it was actually my first. Ever. Which is awkward as hell, but it's true. I just didn't care until Mick.
....That's actually true in a lot of ways.
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Date: 2018-11-17 03:45 am (UTC)I wish I could tell you the things I think. Especially the ones about you. I think I should be able to tell you those things, but when I try, I just get stuck and the words don't come out right. Or they don't come out at all. But even though I don't say them, I think them. I feel them. A lot. Like...a lot a lot. You have no idea the way you've invaded my head, heart and veins, Mick Rory. You're like a disease I never want to be cured from. Or maybe you're the cure I never knew I needed.
I'll just use this to tell you some of the best parts, and maybe one day you'll find this, or maybe I'll find a way to tell you out loud.
Mick Rory, you are my favorite person on the planet. The only one that might win out over you is Lisa, and somehow, I'm pretty sure you'd be okay with losing to her. But only her.
My favorite place in the entire world is on your couch. I'm more comfortable with you than I've ever been with people. I've never felt more at ease, and at home, than when I'm next to you. I hope that sooner, rather than later, I can be there, all the time.
Maybe one day I'll tell you.
Maybe you already know it, in that way you always seem to know everything that I need, even when I don't realize it.